January 7, 2011
“a million tiny pieces take a long time to put together”
supposed to be writing down an outline for what I am speaking on this Sunday. “supposed to” being the key phrase….
i know what i want to say. i know what i want to tell everyone. but i can’t seem to make a start of organizing it or putting it together in some way that will be better than me walking up there and saying “hey you! be a real christian for once and help somebody out! selfish jerks……………………………..let us pray.”
i wonder what would happen if i did that. maybe it would be more effective than starting out nicely like i usually do. well it would be the shortest message ever and most people would probably appreciate it since we aren’t having child care this Sunday.
in charlie and the chocolate factory as Mike TV floats over their heads in the Wonkavision room and his mom is freaking out about why he hasn’t appeared in the tv screen yet…charlie tells her “a million tiny pieces take a long time to put together”. he’s right.
these things take time and patience and prayer and waiting and mulling and thinking…..all things i don’t have! this week has been very busy and demanding. by the time i remembered that i WAS speaking on Sunday I had already planned my days and they tend to be full.
how do you hear God when life is crowding out His voice? how do you find a silent place when you are constantly surrounded? i have this constant image of myself running to the hills and sitting in a meadow or by a rippling brook…alone with just a notebook and silence. THEN i would be able to really hear God.
i don’t live by any hills at all or brooks or meadows. i do live by the coast but bikini-clad cellulite and roller skating dudes isn’t exactly my idea of solace and peace. where do i go?
i tried putting something down during the kids’ naptime. i got as far as two sentences…. I will try again tonight after their bedtime and hope that two more sentences come along.
here’s the thing…i do believe God is speaking amid the chaos of my everyday life and many times i do hear Him. Putting it into something that will be understandable and meaningful to my friends and church family is the hard part. How do i tell them what he is telling me without sounding confused? I am working through the things He is whispering in my ear and figuring out how to live what He is calling me to be. How do i get them to understand that He wants them to do the same?
hey you. be a real christian for once and help somebody out. let us pray.
i think it’s sounding better already….
Reverend Mrs. 